now that august is almost done...

first off, we finally heard from our photographer about our wedding pictures. she wasn't going to tell us anything, but because i have family asking for pictures, i finally asked her if she was done with them. well, she said that she isn't going to work on them until she gets paid in full. um, last time i checked, you had to complete a job before getting paid.... hmmm. anyway, she then proceeded to change the contract which we were originally under. now she wants more money and gave us our pictures, but they are on a cd with a password. no idea if she actually saved to the correct format. (our engagement pictures were in the wrong format so we couldn't print them....thankfully zach is a computer wiz so he reformatted and we got our engagement pictures) well, he hasn't quite been able to break the password, so we have no idea if our wedding pictures are even worth spending money on. i have the money, but i can't access it right now since zach & i are really really poor. and we aren't even sure if we want to pay because we don't know what we are paying for.
she is throwing a big hissy fit, and for those of you looking for a photographer, i do not recommend this girl. i might later, but i promise you will want a written contract that both of you sign and date and have copies of. otherwise, i guarantee she will change the contract and try to blame you for it. and if she is grown up enough to be reading this, i do apologize to her. i am sorry things had to end up like this. i should have known better and just hired someone else.
so if anyone reading this has any wedding pictures from zach & my wedding, we would sure appreciate it if you could email them or facebook them or something else.
i interviewed with a spa last monday. i haven't heard anything since. i know i can't actually get hired until i am licensed. i am still waiting on that... it is hard to believe that it really takes that long to get back to people about a test day. i think if i can get a hands-on interview with the spa, they will realize how valuable i am. i have to laugh at myself because i was debating about wearing a skirt or dress pants to the interview. in the end i wore pin stripe dress pants, blue tank top, and white button up shirt. boy oh boy i am glad i chose dress pants.... the interview was on the floor in the yoga room. we sat on the floor in the yoga room. it was kinda cool, but very different. i do not think it would have gone so well if i had worn a skirt.
i had a really neat opportunity on saturday. one of my friends from massage class called me with a volunteer proposition. he knew some people having a fun run that wanted massage therapists at the end for the runners/walkers. he called me up to see if i would like to come be one of the therapists. it was a local job and sounded like fun so i agreed.
they had wipes for our tables, hand sanitizer, papertowels, garbage can, canopy, and even business card holders all set up for us. i just had to bring myself and my table. i didn't keep track of how many people i worked on, but we were only there for about 2 and a half hours. we did an estimate 5-10 minute massage. (both of us forgot to bring a clock) at the end though, they had a little gift bag for me. inside was a really cool tee shirt with the company name and fun run on it, xbalm chapstick, 10 day passes to the gym, women's vitamins, orange julius coupons, a gas card, and a thank you note. i was surprised they gave me a bag. it was really cool. but the neatest thing was at the very end after everyone was gone and we were cleaning up.
the lady in charge is a doctor. we offered to work on her. my friend had the doctor get on his table, and i had the opportunity to work on my friend's mom. we worked for maybe a half hour or so. (as mentioned before, we had no clock) but we were all kinda talking about the response of having massage therapists there at the fun run. i guess there was one lady who just went on and on and on about my work.
this doctor was impressed and said that we needed to come to the office and work on people. she said if she could get enough support that there might be a possibility of the company purchasing chairs for us and we can come either work the chair off, or get a percentage. either way, i hope that something comes of it. i really would be excited to have the opportunity to have a company purchase a massage chair for me and let me work it off or pay it back or take a percentage.
the only downside is, i didn't have business cards to hand out. so i am relying on my friend to remember me and hopefully include me if something does happen. ok the reason i don't have business cards yet is because i haven't ordered any. the school was also supposed to get us business cards before graduation, but that didn't happen. i got a call last week saying i could come pick them up at the school, but i asked if they could mail them to me instead so i don't have to drive to salt lake. well, the school just called me. they didn't update my address. my cards got sent back to the school. i am wondering if maybe that's why i haven't heard anything about my test. the school can't get things together on the paperwork or communication. GRRR! whatever.
hmm...what else....oh, so yesterday in sunday school we had one kid who was really disruptive and down right rude. it was getting on both zach & my nerves. we were both trying so hard to be nice and polite and keep things under control. as soon as the bells rang, this kid went out of the classroom and held the door shut with his foot and body. nobody could get through. zach tried to knock him a few times, but the kid had got another buddy to come help hold the door. finally he let his foot go and we were able to open the door. my guess as why he let the door go, his mom was coming down the hall and a member of the bishopric came out of the door right next to our classroom. i don't know why, but that kid holding the door really really really made me mad. i wanted to smack him aside his head and grab him by the ear and march him over to his mother and tell her what he had just done. i didn't do that. instead i took a deep breath and went back inside the classroom to finish cleaning up. i wanted to cry. i knew i had to let it go, but i really didn't want to. zach came back in and said that the member of the bishopric asked what happened and zach told him. he said it would be taken care of. i went into sacrament meeting still rather angry and on the verge of tears. when we started singing the opening song, i knew that i had to let the anger go or i shouldn't take the sacrament. the words of the hymn calmed my heart and mind & even though i was still not happy with what had happened, i knew it would be ok. something will change, even if it is just my heart. i don't know what else came of this or will come of it, but i know that next week if this kid acts up again, i will find his mother and have her come in the class with us or have him go to sunday school with his mom. zach says he wants to take the kid to an empty classroom and have just the two of them sit in silence until the bell rings. somehow i don't think that would go over so well considering i got chewed out for having a room full of teenagers and just me. hopefully we can figure something out. and now i am going to leave things here. i really will post pictures sometime. of our wedding(maybe) and of our apartment. i know you have all been waiting. so be patient with me. i am doing the best i can...

life is always going to be crazy

i'm all graduated now. HOORAY!! i have been waiting and waiting for the email to come telling me when i can go take my exams. i swear it may never come..... but whatever i guess. all good things will eventually come to those who are patient right?...
so let's see what all has been going on lately...
my job has been getting a bit harder. thankfully i know that i won't have to be there too much longer. i'll actually get to work a career that i love doing.
um, i still really hate drama. i don't understand why people can't just grow up and accept the responsibility instead of blaming everyone else. then they bring in other drama and i have a major headache and i just want to bawl my eyes and heart out right now.
i really am trying hard to stay positive about life, but i am really struggling. just when i think something may finally start looking good, something else comes in and i spend most of my days feeling so down and depressed. now don't get me wrong, i'm ok. or at least i think i am. i know a good portion of my problem is that i am too focused on just myself. i have now been out of school for 2 weeks and i took a few days off work. what did i do in those few days? slept almost the entire days. and when i wasn't sleeping, i was in a bad mood and wanted to just be left alone, but also felt like i was starved for attention. i don't know how to explain it. poor zach has been so patient and i have been extremely moody.
i have a wonderful husband who loves me and wants me to be happy so he does what he can do. and then here i am; moody, whinny, and angry. i feel like i just want to go out for a run, but then i'm so tired all the time and don't want to do anything, but my brain is going crazy for something to do if i just sit and do nothing. we are newly weds so of course we have no money, so we can't really go out and do anything. the only game we have for 2 people is scrabble. zach has now started creaming me, so it's not quite as fun and i can't think of words because i usually always have a headache. we have gone out a few times on walks, and that is always nice when our schedules can agree. but it is kind of rare that our schedules actually will let us have time together.
i know i could be better at praying, reading my scriptures, doing service. maybe that is really all i need. a vacation from myself, from my thoughts and moods.
i made banana bread again. zach likes it, but it isn't as good as the oops one with frozen eggs. This time it came out a bit more moist and it crumbles when you cut it. I am not sure what the difference between the two was, well other than the first time the eggs were frozen solid.... zach says it still tastes really good. he had the last one gone in 2 days. we'll see how long he gets through this one.
i also made chocolate chip cookies for the sunday school boys we are in charge of teaching. zach and i told them we would maybe bring treats if they bring their scriptures and participate in the lessons. the cookies turned out really well, but were almost too moist and so they crumbled too. i am just not sure what the problem is. anyway, the cookies were still a hit and i think they will all have scriptures next week. we shall see... i'm only taking oreos from the store...not homemade.
oh, so i guess i've been in a singles' ward too long.... zach had to work this past sunday. i had to teach by myself. apparently this has changed in the church. i had no idea, and i've never taught before. but i kinda got chewed out by one of the young women teachers for being the only adult teaching. i guess because things have happened there are always supposed to be two adult teachers now for each class every week. once again, i have been in a singles' ward... and zach and i had only been in this new ward for 2 weeks when we were called as sunday school teachers. no one told us anything. they just said "here's the manual. good luck."
so i am not sure what to do since zach is still scheduled for some sundays. i think the one young women leader got her husband to come in cause i ended up having some brother sneek in right before we said the opening prayer. i have no idea who he is. we have only been in the ward 4 weeks and don't know anyone. they stuck us with the youth. i know 2 people's names that welcomed me the very first week in relief society; norma & marge. and i know the bishop and the ward mission leader. i am still learning the kids' names we teach. zach still has no clue as to who is who. we don't even get a roll to read names off of. the way our ward does roll is to write your own name on a paper on the clipboard. so alas, life is crazy and is always going to be.