hormones....

this may just be a slight venting blog, but i do have some sort of kinda round about funny story. but first the venting because i find that i really should keep a diary, but i find typing much easier not to mention faster. i really really hate that i have to be the "smart" one in my office. not to mention that i am not really tech savvy, but apparently i am and have to be. whatever. i just can't handle when people who really are supposed to be tech savvy because they are working in a tech support place really aren't any help at all. go figure. so i have to figure it out on my own, but the good news is, i did figure it out. bad news, it still didn't work. so i have been on the phone for almost 2 full working days now just trying to get someone to find the extra special thing i missed to make the printer work. BLAH! why can't they test things and make sure that there really aren't so many flaws before they expect little ol me to understand and then teach the even more handicapped.... okay okay, maybe they aren't really handicapped, but that doesn't explain why they still can't do even the smallest of tasks not to mention that one flat out refused to learn, but then was told that there isn't a choice anymore in the matter. double BLAH!
okay so now i am just all around frustrated with myself because i told myself i was going to be gone before christmas 2010.... now i looks like i may be there for a while longer. and if they can't find someone to replace me, well then it isn't my problem and i can walk away and never give another thought to it. don't get me wrong, i do love most of the people. and i haven't found another job to give my well, i suppose i should give more than just 2 weeks, but if it comes to it, then 2 weeks is all it will be. who knows. it just depends on when i can get down to SLC to get fingerprinted and background checked and fees paid and apply for the license. i have all the paperwork filled out. i (thanks to a wonderful sister) now have the money to pay the fees. i just need to be able to take a day between monday and thursday to go to SLC in the day/working hours. only 2 problems.... i am much needed at work and gas. why am i so loyal to my job. why can't i just play sick one day so i can still get my hours that zach & i so desperately need... and why can't i just get it done? i hate that i am so close and yet i feel like it is impossible and can't find the will power or whatever it is to just be done with stupid people.
i get so frustrated dealing with the exact same issues everyday with the same people. and why can't people just work at work. is that really too much to ask for. i sure wish i could just talk on my phone all day and hide out in the bathroom and walk around talking to everyone instead of working or take as much time as possible to do a simple task. i wish i could come to work, punch in, change my clothes, read the paper, and then come down to work and then do what i really wanted to do at work instead of prioritizing things, and then when it is time to leave, go change my clothes again and then wait a few more minutes just to make sure i get all the time i can, and then punch out and leave. i wish i could do that. but then, oh yeah.... i'd get FIRED. so why do other people get away with it all the time. why do i have to work my butt off and still have things that "need" to get done but if i hit over 40 hours i get written up. why can't the system work.
alright...i think i am okay now. so on to the kinda funny in a round about way story... on sunday zach and i came home to find that rei rei had got into the trash and covered the living room floor with it. upon cleaning it up, zach found a blue plastic pouch with a sticker on it. it was partially eaten. he handed it to me and asked what it was. it was my birth control pills from my mostly zipped up purse. rei rei had opened my purse, dug through it, and pulled out; not the gum, not the candy, and not the chocolate.... but the birth control pills!!! and not only did she manage to get the pill pack out of the plastic wrap, she almost got every single pill out of the punch bubbles.
i have no idea how she did it, but i was so mad i was ready to just beat her. she put herself in the kennel though and stayed there the rest of the night. i went into work monday and didn't really have a clue as to what i should do. i asked the pharmacy people if rei rei would be okay. they said that since she is spayed that she should be okay but we should still watch her. and then i asked if i could get another pack of pills, esp since it was a brand new pack. they looked it up... insurance won't pay for it or any part of it... i could just get it and pay out of pocket. i asked how much. the answer $50.00 YIKES! then a friend suggested i should go to planned parenthood. it would work, but i would have to see one of their doctors first. i don't know how long that would take. then another friend suggested that i call up my doctor and just ask if there is anyway i could get a free sample pack. so that is what i did. i called up my doctor. only problem, they didn't give me a call back until close of tuesday night. i had called as soon as i was off work tuesday. i should have figured something out on monday, but things just didn't work so nicely on monday. it was just not such a happy day.
the doctor's office said that if i could come wednesday at 9am (when they open) that i could get a sample pack and that i would have to take 1 pill as soon as i could get it, and then take another one at night. then do that again thursday (today). they also told me that for the next 7 days that we should use backup birth control if we make love unless we want to possibly start our family growing with children. um, not yet please. so they didn't have my exact birth control that i have been taking, and this new one is slightly different. and it is messing with my hormones. maybe it is just in my head, but i have been awfully short tempered and then just short of crying and then back to being angry and then depressed and then my poor husband gets the full craziness of it all. but it has now been 5 days and rei rei is okay. so i guess that is what is important. even though my emotions are all over the place, we are both okay and i just have to remember that. so now i have comleted my story and here i shall leave you all.